Fitness found me, but the decision to throw in the towel reared its ugly head at the beginning of last week. Refer to my Instagram post below for more details.
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😓Time for some "beginning of the week real talk" – is it time to throw in towel??? . Injuring my foot has really been a huge setback in my life. More so mentally than physically in terms of my transformation.😤 . Yes, I walk around with a huge smile and high energy. Well that's what you guys see most of the time. What you don't see is the early morning and late evening crying which is more related to my frustrations than anything else. The pain has improved tremendously so that's not the issue at hand. I'm limited in everything I do, I've slowed down considerably and I can't do most activities with my kids which is really depressing me. My entire lifestyle has been affected and I'm tired. 😭 . Follow up with the doc today, sees us seek a second opinion from a specialist to make sure everything is in order. I've been working out and going about my day to day activities all under strict supervision. . But today, I honestly feel like throwing in the towel. While I should be doing my evening workout, I'm in bed with a migraine and a sick child. . 🔴I'm faced with so many pressing questions 🔳How many more setbacks do I need to endue? 🔲Do I have anything left in the tank to help me see the next two months through? 🔳Will I need that op on my foot? 🔲Is it all worth it 🔳Should I just throw in the towel? . Its time for bed and I'm hoping that I wake up with a clearer vision in terms of my journey and my way forward. I also wanted to thank everyone for the love and support over the past 2 months. I'm eternally blessed to have you guys in my corner 💞
Truth is, I’ve fallen into a little bit of a depression due to the setback created by my injury. The not knowing has been killing me. Not being able to do certain things with my kids has been killing me. Not been able to workout properly has really gotten to me. It’s been a continental stuff up with my foot injury and … the timing could not have been worse. I’m human and I’ve been taking strain.
However in a recent interview with Get It Online we discussed my weight loss journey and somewhere during the interview, I had an aha moment.
When asked how my journey had taken me from one end of the scale to the other…. this was my response. “I honestly believe that fitness found me. It’s been a saving grace in so many respects and it’s something I am now extremely passionate about. Living to inspire was never on my initial agenda, but I’ve found this to be the best and most rewarding part of my journey”.
Fitness wasn’t the plan either. Losing weight was. I just wanted to lose the weight and improve my health. Little did I know that my journey would change to one of fitness and that I would become immensely passionate about fitness.
Fitness has brought an incredible amount of clarity and peace into my life. Its calms me and helps me focus. Fitness has guided me towards my life’s purpose. I’ve always wanted to help people achieve their full potential but U didnt know how. Inspiring people to dig deep and never give up is indeed rewarding and helps me stay on track. Fitness has transformed my life in the most incredible way, so how can I throw in the towel. In addition to that, I am supported by so many amazing people that throwing in the towel is not even an option.
After taking a week off from literally everything to deal with my mental game I can honestly say that I’m back and I ain’t going anywhere. I am ready for the final push and my mental game is on point. Simply put … I’m not throwing in the towel!